Three angel of hopeyears ago today our baby, Darcy, went to Heaven’s nursery. Our dreams were shattered and we struggled to pick up the pieces. I thought one day this would get easier and maybe I’d forget the date or something, but really how can you forget a piece of your heart?

I don’t feel like writing a lot today. Instead, I want to share the lyrics to a song. A friend had this you tube video on her blog. It is a song called I will Carry You written by Angie and Todd Smith. Todd is a member of the Christian group, Selah. They recently lost a baby girl. This song is just amazing.  

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I’m brave
But I’m not
Truth is I’m barely hanging on
There’s a greater story, written long before me
Because he loves you like this.

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
I will carry you
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years,
I will carry you
All my life
I will praise the one who’s chosen
Me to carry you

Such a short time,
Such a long road
All this madness but I know
That the silence has brought me to voice

And he says…..
I’ve shown her photographs of time beginning
I walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, No more teary eyes

I will Carry You
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life I will praise the one who’s chosen me
To carry you.


waveoflight.gifIt’s Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day today. Many mothers of angels will be lighting candles today. My candle will be burning for my three angel babies and for Kami’s angel babies and the angel babies of my other friends. I pray that God grants us all the peace we need in knowing that our babies are in a better, perfect place and that one day the void in our hearts will be no more, when we hold our babies in heaven!

My sweet angel baby,

You have been in heaven two whole years today. I can’t beleive it’s been that long since I would rub my belly and talk to you. I know you are in a better place and I try to remember that – my brain knows that, but telling my heart that is a different story.

I think of you often and know that one day we will reunite. For now, your Grandmothers and Grandfathers and all the other relatives will keep you company until I get there.


Your Mom